PRESSURE....!!!!!!!

i just don't know what to say....
but this month really hurts me....
i am really getting pressured by my life...

firstly, last week i go back to Penang....
not for fun or hangout....
my mom having a surgery....
removing her cancer....
so, i need to take care of her all the time....
but it is ok la....we only got 1 mom right...
but i don't have time for myself to enjoy....
cuti tapi tak macam cuti....

secondly, after coming back from holidays....
i heard the news that i will be permenantly work night shift....
crazy or what????
i can't go out with my friend...
can't do things that people usually do...
what is the meaning of my life like that???
so, immediate action needed....
i will resign next month....
already submit the letter to my manager...
so i need to find any job right now....
my family keep pushing me to go back to my hometown...
but i refuse...i still want to make friends as much as i can...
so, i think i will be staying in Malacca...
until when??? i also don't know....

lastly, my best friend wedding will be held end of this month...
until now i can't think what gift should i gave him....
he is my friend from childhood until now....
i think from the age 3, we already be friend....
now he's going to married someone he love the most....
hopefully they will be happy forever....
back to the gift....what should i give????
if got any ideas, please help me....
budget is around RM300.00 please....

so, this MAY 2009 are just not right for me....
i am really3 pressured with my life....
thanks to all my friends, i can still stand up...
if not, i don't think that i can live right now....
hope i can have happy moment sooner or later...hope so...
really meant it....i feel pain inside.......